Meet an Old Friend of Mine

hi.

it's 2:26 AM.

just found this old notebook!

Jangan tanya kenapa sampulnya kaya gitu. When I was 7 I told my mom to bought this notebook because I thought it was cute, and I literally didnt understand the meaning of this notebook's cover picture. 

then i started to write on this thing on my last semester in the second grade.

i really need to blur everything. se-gak jelas itu ternyata tulisan anak kelas dua SD yang seneng bisa naik kelas ke kelas tiga.

This was on the seventh page of this notebook. Masih tetep update dengan ngasih tau skrg kelas berapa :') dan tulisan sebelumnya dari halaman ini adalah cerita gue pas jadi anak kelas tiga SD dengan ngeluh susah belajar matematika, gak mau belajar, pengen nonton tv aja, and so on, dengan font gede-kecil-gede-kecil yang gue gak mau share even bisa di blur. just... no.

Funny thing, gue selalu inget dengan buku ini setahun sekali atau paling banyak setahun tiga kali. Buku ini seakan-akan ilang dari kamar, tapi setahun berikutnya muncul lagi dan minta ditulis. Seakan minta diupdate gimana hidup gue sekarang.

Jadi di halaman selanjutnya gue bener-bener ngisi satu tahun sekali, (walaupun ada yang sempet skip, no update in 2012.)

daan ini dia dua tulisan terakhir di buku ini, yang sebelah kiri tahun 2014, dan yang sebelah kanan adalah 2015. i just wrote something in there hehehe just a few updates about my life and this tiring college life, and about my complicated yet awesome stuff (in a very short words) with him.

One thing that makes me happy is that in 2014 I wrote; "semoga di tulisan selanjutnya udah jadi mahasiswi Universitas Indonesia." and then in the next page, I write "alhamdulillah bisa nepatin nulis disini dengan predikat mahasiswi di universitas itu." Until today I still thank God for everything, for putting me there, for giving this life eventho I know I rarely remember to say 'alhamdulillah' or sometimes I really wish I could just undo everything, but isn't it just something that almost everybody's hope for?

ok sorry idk what to post, 

but it's almost 3 AM, and instead of writing another 'My Midnight Thought', I prefer to share about this notebook in this blog because I think this blog is a part of me too.

- Tiara Disya -